Hi okay so I'm not blogging here any longer, I haven't, for quite some time.

Slacking in Starbucks even though I'm really supposed to be doing seqs.
I'm really starting to miss having a social life cause lately it's pretty much been all,Studying in Starbucks the whole day.

I miss so many people,Trevor I haven't seen you in forever.
Brandon is having his annoying prelims now
Anna and angie we need a Starbucks date soon
TS MDS day

Tmr am meeting Man Kit to study ah where else but OF SB.
Thinking of the farewell dinner too,a tad dificult to coordinate and get everyone on the same day for dinner plus he's off to London on the 26th,so yes.

Saturday is play day though I can barely wait!
Will pop by for service in the evening to give everyone hugs and squeal about how much I miss them - Anna I WANT MY COMB BACK HAHAHA.

Oops. Got to go,


Khruschev beckons.

A mother passing by her daughter’s bedroom was astonished to see the bed was nicely made and everything was picked up. Then she saw an envelope propped up prominently on the center of the bed. It was addressed, “Mom.” With the worst premonition, she opened the envelope and read the letter with trembling hands:

Dear Mom: It is with great regret and sorrow that I’m writing you. I had to elope with my new boyfriend because I wanted to avoid a scene with Dad and you. I’ve been finding real passion with John and he is so nice-even with all his piercings, tattoos, beard, and his motorcycle clothes. But it’s not only the passion Mom, I’m pregnant and John said that we will be very happy. He already owns a trailer in the woods and has a stack of firewood for the whole winter. He wants to have many more children with me and that’s now one of my dreams too. John taught me that marijuana doesn’t really hurt anyone and we’ll be growing it for us and trading it with his friends for all the cocaine and ecstasy we want. In the meantime, we’ll pray that science will find a cure for AIDS so John can get better; he sure deserves it!! Don’t worry Mom, I’m 15 years old now and I know how to take care of myself. Someday I’m sure we’ll be back to visit so you can get to know your grand children.

Your daughter, Judith

PS: Mom, none of the above is true. I’m over at the neighbor’s house. I just wanted to remind you that there are worse things in life than my report card that’s in my desk center drawer. I love you! Call when it is safe for me to come home.

Hi guys sorry have not been updating for a really long time but uhm really nothing much has happened basically it's still me in Starbucks studying-same old,same old. Today I kind of feel like shit and am blogging in Starbucks so I will not be doing any paragraphing since i'm too damn lazy. B I know that when you tried to figure out whether I was okay and what was going on I pushed you away. I know you're prolly mad at me right now and fed up with everything and you don't care anymore. I think this is the last straw I think we're finally not friends anymore. It breaks me and I swear I feel like shit just thinking of losing you because part of me still loves you yet part of me can't stand you for making me your backup plan and not your choice. I tried to be okay with being second all the time but this is it I'm done with being second because just for once,can't I be your priority? I can't ever be your priority because she is yours. You can't have the best of both worlds- this is where you choose. And I know that you will choose her over me, but just so you know. If things don't work out with her,don't come running back to me.

I haven't slept at all in days

It's been so long since we've talked

And i have been here many times
I haven't slept at all in days
I just don't know what i'm doing wrong
It's been so long since we've talked

And I have been here many times

I just don't know what I'm doing wrong
What can i do to make you love me

What can i do to make you care
What can I do to make you love me
What can i say to make you feel this
What can I do to make you care
What can i do to get you there
What can I say to make you feel this

What can I do to get you there


There's only so much i can take
There's only so much I can take
And i just got to let go
And I just got to let go
And who knows i might feel better, yeah
And who knows I might feel better, yeah
If i don't try and i don't hope
If I don't try and I don't hope



What can I do to make you love me
What can i do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can i do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can i say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there
What can i do to get you there


No more waiting, no more, aching

No more fighting, no more, trying...
No more waiting, no more, aching

No more fighting, no more, trying...
Maybe there's nothing more to say

And in a funny way I'm calm

Because the power is not mine
Maybe there's nothing more to say
I'm just going to let it fly...
And in a funny way i'm calm

Because the power is not mine
What can I do to make you love me
I'm just going to let it fly...
What can I do to make you care




I was in the cab when I heard this song on the radio and thought, HAHA this song truly reflects the situation now.
This song was my favorite song in like 2006.


Come with me, stay the night
You say the words but boy it don't feel right
What do you expect me to say
(You know it's just too little too late)
You take my hand, and you say you've changed
But boy you know your beggin' don't fool me
Because to you it's just a game
(You know it's just too little too late)
So let me on down
Cause time has made me strong
I'm starting to move on
I'm gonna say this now
Your chance has come and gone

And you know
It's just too little too late
A little too wrong
And I can't wait
Boy you know all the right things to say
(You know it's just too little too late)
You say you dream of my face
But you don't like me
You just like the chase
To be real, it doesn't matter anyway
(You know it's just too little too late)

I was young and in love
I gave you everything but it wasn't enough
And now you wanna communicate
(You know it's just too little too late)
Go find someone else
In lettin you go, I'm lovin myself
You gotta problem
But don't come askin me for help

When I need you you're either drunk and completely limp or God knows where in Singapore.
You're everywhere except by my side.



When I'm sobbing on the roadside at three in the morning you're never there to take me home.
You said you would.



I am Alice in wonderland.



Watch



Me



Fall.

HAHA Amanda's getting a tattoo on her left butt cheek.

Updating while in HK now, okay so there are a couple of things I'm looking forward to this june.

Study dates w Angie and Anna at One Fullerton
Rugby lessons w Trevor though we tried once it was a complete and utter failure
More study dates w Van
Picnics with Tylerrrrrrr
Hopefully MDS with ts and van
China outing which has not been planned (I'm not sure it ever will be)
Brandon days
Sleepovers at Erica's
And my photography days probably with uh myself
Need to hurry find a gift for Kelly

But yes june will mostly be me in a big chair in Starbucks doing physics and making Mr Chow proud.

Oh yes and its time to head to Borders soon to gratify my constant need for new books.

Its been four years since you messed up my life and not a day goes by that I dont think of you and how if given a chance I'd do it differently and get my life in order.

Just thinking about you makes me sick in the gut.
I go through it every single day silently wishing you were still here with me, going through all of it with me.


I cant forgive myself because it is too big a mistake to ever forgive.

I cant help but imagine what life would be like if I didnt make such big mistakes years ago that still haunts me to this day.


I hate you and then I love you.







Whoever reads this, dont even bother asking what its all about, because honestly, you dont want to know.

And I wouldnt even tell you anyway -regardless of who you are.





Prasanna said when taking the shot above, "Wait wait must capture the shoes, must get the shoes"
Best Quote Ever.



HAHAHAHAHA I look drunk in the Fusion shot w Delia. 2nd picture.

Below 40= Not girlie
Above 40= Girlie
Above 55= Paris Hilton

[x] My fingernails/toenails are almost always painted.
[x] During the summer pretty much the only shoes I wear are flip flops.
[] My favorite toy as a child were barbies.
[] My favorite color is pink or purple.
[] I did Gymnastics.
[x] I love skirts/shorts
[ ] Hollister is my favorite place to shop.
[] Tight jeans are the only jeans I'll wear.
[x] I love chocolate.

TOTAL SO FAR:4

[] I straighten my hair.
[x] I have at least 8 facebook pictures.
[x] I usually go shopping once a week.
[x] I love to hang out with friends.
[x] I have a real diamond ring or diamond necklace.
[ ] I've gone to a tanning salon.
[x] I've gone to the beach to tan - not to swim.
[x] I have at least 10 pairs of shoes.
[x] I watch(ed) either The OC, Laguna Beach OR Desperate Housewives.
[] I change my profile weekly.
[x] I have worn a shower cap.

TOTAL SO FAR: 12

[] I would NEVER step foot into Hot Topic.
[x] My cell phone might as well become a part of me.
[ ] I wear mascara everyday. Can’t leave the house without it.
[] I've been or am on a diet.
[x] Bathing suits are adorable.
[ ] I don't know the difference between a sheep and a goat.
[x] Big sunglasses are hot.
[x] I have gotten my nails done.
[x] I own over 10 purses.
[] Much Music is my one of my favorite channels.

TOTAL SO FAR: 17

[] I like to talk about boys.
[x] I love to have other people do my hair.
[x] I like to give and receive hugs from all my friends.
[x] I hate bugs.
[x] Carnivals are so fun!
[x] Summer is THE best season.
[x] My swimsuit has 2 pieces.
[x] I'm waiting for my knight in shining armor. He'll come someday.
[] Musicians are hot.


TOTAL SO FAR:24

[x]I'm self-conscious.
[] I cry often.
[ ] My room smells like vanilla.
[x] My dishes get washed more then once a week.
[x] I don't do sports
[] I HATE to run.
[] I squeal when I am surprised.
[x] I eat dried fruit as a snack.
[x] I love romance novels.
[x] Drew Barrymore is so cute.

TOTAL SO FAR: 30

[x] I dance a lot. Randomly.
[] I usually spend over an hour to get ready to leave my house.
[x] My hair is important.
[x] I love to get dressed up.
[x] Every part of my outfit needs to match.
[x] I talk on the phone at least once a day to my friends.
[] I'd love to have a photo shoot of myself.
[x] The price on clothes hardly matters.
[ ] I apply lip gloss 50 times a day...
[] I wish I were a model…

TOTAL SO FAR: 36

[] I wish I could meet Paris Hilton.
[] I wanted or have been something that was *hoochie* on Halloween.
[x ] R&B is the best music.
[ ] I pop my collar.
[x] Guys with Mohawks are GROSS!
[] Horses are beautiful.
[] I never pay attention in school...
[] Cats are adorable.

TOTAL SO FAR: 38

[] I write my own music.
[x] I would love to visit Hawaii.
[x] Valentine's day is so cute!
[ ] White is better than black...
[x] I wouldn't be caught dead in all black.
[x] My closet is STOCK FULL of clothes.
[x] I hate the grunge look of a beard.
[x] I love to read magazines.

TOTAL SO FAR: 44

[x] I love lip gossip.
[x] I love Celine Dion.
[ ] My baths are 2 hours long.
[] My wedding only needs a groom because it's already planned.
[ ] My friends and I are in a strict group. We mostly only hang out with each other.
[x] I like kids.
[] Diet drinks are the best.
[] I have been a vegetarian.
[] I refuse to eat at McDonald's.
TOTAL SO FAR: 47

[x] I check my Facebook everyday.
[x] I have a lot of jewelry
[] My screen name[s] has x's in them.
[] Either one of my msn names has/had <3/♥'s in them.
[ ] I would never want to be the opposite sex.
[x] I have more than 3 pillows on my bed.

GRAND TOTAL:50


SEE I'm not a Paris Hilton.