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Wednesday, December 19, 2007

at 11:06 AM

disappointment tumbles,falls,and crashes.
i didn't think it would happen
until the reality of it all hits me hard.

i don't want to talk about it.
i want to talk about last night.everything was perfect.well,not exactly.but still.
last night i talked to brandon again.at first i was pretty messed up.i think i was afraid that i wouldn't be able to handle it.a maths,history,e maths,physics,chemistry,chinese. and the fact that christmas is like almost a week away isn't helping,either.it reminds me that december is coming to an end,and january will soon be ushered in.the holidays are ending and the academic competitiveness is rushing towards me,day by day.and so i talked to brandon,and for once,he sounded genuinely happy. it was like the strong exterior that he hides behind wasn't there last night.i've never seen him that before.but it was nice.he told me that he had a christmassy day.and that it was lovely although he was home all day.

i'm serious.that was a direct quote.he used the word,"lovely". and he told me that he baked christmas goodies all day.and he laughed alot.like he was so happy.and then he told me that he loved christmas.and i asked him why.the presents? haha.and he said,every f**king thing about it. hah.i couldn't believe it.like suddenly he was a kid all over again.the one that waited eagerly for christmas to come.and one that isn't afraid of showing that he is excited about christmas.

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Okay so my name is Rachel. I'm in Fairfield Methodist School. Member of Choir, I love dancing around, laughing so much my stomach hurts. Godiva is my very best friend, uhm this is stupid I should stop.