trevor called.
oh my,i'm so touched.
haha we spent an hour talking, mrs crosby invited me over to dinner again! she's doing turkey so she told trevor to invite me :) i'll be going on wednesdayyy i cant wait.
trevor's picking me up from the airport wait till he sees the brooks brothers tailored shorts i got him.

saw disney princess paraphernalia today,wanted to get the pack for pris and nicole to share but they only had one pack left and part of the notebook was torn :(

my parents have narrowed the school search down to one school- the Bishop Strachan School for girls. its not too bad you can go to their website to take a look. that is,if we get the approval for canadian citizenship. but there's a boy's school just down the road and apparently the two schools collaborate on many events.so thats good :)
its a good school its like some anglican church thing.

http://privateschool.about.com/gi/dynamic/offsite.htm?zi=1/XJ&sdn=privateschool&cdn=education&tm=85&gps=66_10_1916_1031&f=10&tt=3&bt=1&bts=1&zu=http%3A


duncan and i went out in the morning to get a few bagels and guess what some dogs started sniffing me and i almost screamed. its not that i hate dogs,no,its just that i thought they were gonna bite me. and i had this look of sheer horror on my face so duncan started cracking up but its not funny okay i was bloody terrified. dean and deluca serves the best coffee ever,pris,its better than the starbucks that you crave.

we went to New York. took a translatic flight and its like what,2/3 hours?

i love my dean & deluca bag. even though i paid SGD $26 for it. but it is so worth it.

we went to the store on Madison Ave.

okay so before everyone who read the last post starts to think that i'm a total upscale snob i'm going to tell you that i'm not. i'm totally normal i do cheap stuff too.

let me tell you all the cheap stuff i got! :D

a pair of brown leather wedges SGD $26
a pair of black glitter ballet flats with a ribbon in the front SGD $10 [can you believe it]
a chiffon skirt with cherry prints SGD $15

oh my,i heart shopping :D
i heart my friends in church
i heart trevor
i heart priscilla
i heart angie
i heart nicole
i heart van
and of course,i heart brandon [KEEP GOING, DONT TOUCH THE CIGARETES]

i heart very few people in my school. heh.

i regret not buying the black patent leather gladiator heels today cause my mom said it was, "too mature for my age".

oh well. i'll conclude with an apology to van for not wishing her a happy birthday. sorry!
well its not my fault the stupid man kept tapping his toes to tell me to hurry up and log off the computer so that he can use it. asshole.
but still. sorry van!


i went shopping. okay i know you guys are excited,so listen.
this place is a shopping haven.

BCBG Max Azaria,Chanel,Gucci,Versace,Valentino,Dolce & Gabbana,Brooks Brothers,Ralph Lauren,Tommy Hilfiger,Laura Ashley,L.L Bean,UCB,Coach,Christian Lacroix,Marni,Missoni,Loewe,Banana Republic,Armani Exchange,FCUK,Gap,Bally,Tod's,Hogan,and so many more stores that i cant even remember.

my eyes just danced around with delight.i grabbed a cappucino and headed straight for Gap.

the whole damn place is like a bloody shrine for high end capitalism.

and get this,they're cheap.


bought:
large coach handbag,SGD $400
Banana Republic leather handbag, SGD $200
Tommy Hilfiger jeans SGD $80
FCUK jeans, SGD $40

those are my best buys.
bought much more.

can you believe it,UCB cardigans are going for $20.Banana Republic skirts are going at $15.
Tommy Hilfiger tops going at $30.Gap sweatshirts going for $15.

i almost cried. this is the best place ever. Coach bags-50% off,and they're original.

seriously i'm not kidding. i have the paper bag and if you say its fake,go look inside.

its the real deal,babe.

i know you're dying of envy right now :)

we went to the fish market that day and i cried like a baby.
i'm terrified of fish markets. partly cause of the smell.
if i tell brandon this he'll laugh his head off.
it is so not funny i thought i was about to have an embolism right there and then.

i wonder how's everyone.
brandon,how many ciggies have you done.
pris,what did you buy in malaysia?
van,i know you're just dissolving as you read this now you are so jealous,babe admit it.


i'm heading to Dean & Deluca now,need to get some groceries.
Actually thats just an excuse,i just want the Dean & Deluca bag. heh.

love you guys. ciao.

[ohh,everyone speaks french here i dont understand what shit they're talking about.thank god thats just their mother tongue.everyone still speaks english.]

hello from canada!

hi everyone,okay so i'm using the computer in my apartment to type this,and i just wanted to give you guys an update. i'm here already and its rather cold here but its really nice the people are honest and friendly. i went to see the Niagara Falls and it is truly amazing. i just sort of looked at it and thought of how amazing our God is.
i have a neighbour and he's very nice. he's half japanese and half american and he has an impossibly long and unpronouncible japanese name but thank god for his english name. Duncan. he's two years older,i think. when i first met him i just thought,wow.
he was wearing a pair of seven jeans,a paul smith shirt and a prada duffel.
thats why.
then i found out his dad drives a black porsche spider.
that explains alot.
thank God i didnt look too shabby i was in my jill stuart floral dress and arm candy of choice would be the louis vuitton speedy i stole from my mom.

i sound so materialistic.
ahh,okay,so anyway.

he brought me to this deli thats really near our place and the park,too,which was lovely. and then i started thinking how i wouldnt mind to live here at all.
i am beyond tired.
you should see the amount of stuff i bought. where to start?

my eyes are drooping already darling.
will try to update once again.
love you guys.

[someone please tell me how hillsongs concert went!]

hi everyone!

okay so i'm at the airport using their free internet access to type this now. just had a chicken and bacon sandwich in o briens,am pretty satisfied and full.saw a fat man in watsons buying condoms just now.haha.
am waiting for boarding now.


i'm hiding behind a facade that i'm too afraid to erase.
my whole life is built around that facade.
what happens when you take away the centre,the heart,the facade?
all you're left with is a husk,an empty shell of what used to be.

i'm feeling more alone than ever.

i'm leaving in a few days. i cant wait :) i'll miss everyone,especially: trevor,pris,people in cell,von,brandon.



i want to kick and yell and shout and scream.
and yet i hold it all in.

i'm fine.


am i lying to myself,or the people around me?

thank you trevor for the massimo dutti floral dress.

i closed my eyes and you kissed my eyelids, as if to stop the tears from flowing.

today i woke up and felt like shit. so i ate a sandwich and went out. i stepped out of the house in my rainbow roxy shorts,a white tshirt,and my lime green womens secret velvet hoodie. then i realised that i was actually braless. thank god for my hoodie. so i went back in and got dressed properly. then i cabbed to his place. and when i got out of the cab i pressed the doorbell and he appeared at the door in his green ripcurl shorts and grey tshirt. damn i think i woke him up. okay so he pressed the button to let me in through the gate and i went in and said hi to mrs crosby who gave me a hug. then we went to his room and the moment we got in there he went,whats wrong? and i must've really looked like shit for him to actually notice that so i just told him. i told him everything. by the time i got to the end i was actually crying in his arms and trying to smile. i think i must've looked so ugly then with my red squinty eyes and the pink hairband. then we talked and laughed for awhile more and went out for ice cream.

He pushed his fingers through his hair and said, 'My whole life was about her,' he took a deep breath and broke down. 'What if her whole life wasnt about me?'

i love you.

i told brandon what i have never told anyone else before.
i think he got a shock.
but thank you.

trevor i like your grey cashmere pullover :)
god its so soft.

day one of work attachment:
we got all the shite jobs i'm never working in science centre again.
i dont see how it'll "help me in the future" as i do not plan to work as a clerical assistant.
but it was fun me,abi joy and cassie laughed so much we just fooled around.

i love you trevor thank you for sending me home heh sorry i fell asleep.