hey everyone, sorry for such an incredibly long time since i last updated, but i've been busy beyond belief. just completed my english argumentative essay and i'm really proud of it :)

oh,and thank you priscilla for the present! hahaha i love love.
she gave me the most adorable care bear ever!

my mom got her knickers in a twist when i asked if i could borrow her loewe bag. haha but then she laughed and allowed me to anyway.

i miss trevor. he's on summer break. oh come back.

i told a lie.


and now i'm in trouble for it.


but there is one way out.
i'm working on it now.




oh god, i'm never gonna tell such a huge lie again.








i look in the mirror and i hate the girl i see, staring back at me.
i'm changing, i'm morphing into someone no one would think i am.
and i'm scared of myself.
i'm scared of what i am turning into.
i'm scared of my own brain.





cause you see, change is relative.


ohmygod i think i know trevor's whole underwear wardrobe. HAHAHAHAHA eh how come i always know whats in people underwear drawer? trevor wears Armani underwear! :D


hahahaha.


i know he really,really doesnt appreciate me posting it up here, but still.

its a step up from the calvin klein underwear that i wear.

okay,so far, i know what type of underwear trevor wears, i know every piece of underwear nicole ( not nicole lim shu mei ) wears, i know paul's boxers wardrobe only because his maid folded everything neatly and placed them on his huge satin bed HAHAHA and i know kate wears La Senza undies.

oh,and i happen to know priscilla owns red underwear!



oh god,i just realised i'm a total perv!

but its not my fault nicole left them lying around in her luggage, paul's maid put it all on display(HAHAH, i still cant get over that one), kate made me go shopping with her to get new underwear cause she decided to throw all her old ones out, and i saw trevor's when i was at his place.


is anyone willing to buy me a chanel necklace?

HAHA omg i had the most fun today!

okay so i spent the morning sleeping and then i met kathleen,alvern and tim at school to start brainstorming and preparing for our debate and it went surprisingly well :)

we really focused and got work done. they'll send out details and points to me tonight so that i can start writing my speech. i get only three minutes to speak. ahh.
so we were talking and tim was rather confident.
but i think we still shouldnt underestimate them just cause' they're a neighbourhood school. i mean, what if they totally whack us at the debate?
and if we keep thinking we've got the upperhand we'll get complacent.

so we're just trying to keep the ideas going while chilling at the same time.


so on to the good part.
i'm at trevor's place now and i'm staying over tonight.
we're just sitting in his room talking and laughing.
we're going to Lau Pa Sat later cause i have a huge craving for satay right now and i begged trevor to go with me.






because you live, my world has twice as many stars in the sky.

je vous aime.


De toi à moi
Il y a des choses qui n's'expliquent pas
Tant elles se confondent
Tant elles sont profondes, légères à la fois
De toi à moi
Il y a je crois des mots qui n'osent pas
Des mots qui n'osent plus
Et si nos amours déçus semblaient savoir
De toi à moi




i love you.

more than you think i do.

hi everyone,

oh god i feel so sick when i listen to jesse mccartney's songs now. he wrote them to katie cassidy! what the heck he could do way better than that. ugh.

the songs are nice, but when i think of the fact that the lyrics are directed to her i feel sick. ewww.

okay this is officially the last day of my jesse mccartney phase.


i'm having e learning and so i'm at home now.
i had like the sickest dream ever of priscilla and it was disgusting haha.
i dont intend to tell her what it was cause she'll think i'm a total perv! HAHA.
oh well. i love you,priscilla :D
thank you for making me feel better yesterday and putting up with all my nonsense. :)


retail therapy, anyone?

i am so addicted to jesse mccartney's leavin' and just so you know.
he sounds beyond sexy singing in french de toi a moi.

oh oh, i forgot! or, you could get me a book! :D


stayed home today i think i'm missing out on all the fun at school cause they're all doing funfair prep.

i'm not getting any better my flu just got worse.

its my birthday sooon, and ahh, i've placed a list of the things i want so it might make things easier for those who wants to get me a present yet does not know what to give me.
[ okay, its my first time doing this, demanding people get me these things, heh. ]

dont worry i wont make you buy me a kate spade wallet heh,i'm not so mean :D

old navy, women's clean front shorts
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old navy, women's double stone chain necklace
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old navy, women's drop stone bangles
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old navy, women's stone pendant necklace
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old navy, women's wrapped stone bangle
http://www.oldnavy.com/browse/product.do?cid=26201&pid=521946
USD $4.99

or, any long necklace or bangle from f21.
:)
heh. right now i'm really into bangles and necklaces.
thank you :)


or you could get me a card and write loads of things in it! oh i love recieving cards! :D

right now i am so in love with jesse mccartney. he is gorgeous. and sweet,gentlemanly oh my god i want to cry i love him so bad.

HAHA i sound so ridiculous, but i really do love jesse mccartney. hello, does anyone know if he's still single?
i would die if he came to singapore!

okay, sorry everyone, time to go, cause i have some major fantasizing to do.



jesse mccartney is the sexiest man on earth.

hello, everyone!

i'm feeling brighter today even though i had a relatively bad day. but oh well.
i met trevor for lunch we went to new york new york.
he was super funny HAHA! oh, trevor is the love!

i had pasta and trevor got fish and chips and we shared the calamari.
the fries were so good okay i kept stealing them from trevor.

am preparing for the debate now, arghh i hope we can pull this off.

GO FAIRFIELD! :D

had lots of fun in english class today with timothy,wen min and dylan.
we kept laughing over timothy's antics he looked like he was out to seduce people- both girls and guys. then mr rabbech chose timothy,wen min and i to read out a part of Macbeth and it was hilarious. i played the part of the first witch and then wen min was like, eh take the broom take the broom! HAHA so i took it and put it between my legs. heh. then when i was reading halfway i realised that i sounded like i had short tongue cause of the stupid retainers and i went, "eh sorry ah,i need to take my retainers out."

so i pulled it out of my mouth and the guys all started laughing and everyone was like, "oh,sick!"
HAHA heh,sorry. i didnt mean to gross everyone out.

then there was this line,"I come, graymalkin!"
and i was like, "I come, gray-" and i couldnt help it i snorted and laughed so hard HAHAHAHA

WHAT THE PONG! hahahahaha

i still cant get over it.

and in lit ms sheena showed us this video of the auditions of bulgarian idol and it was hilarious! HAHAHA the woman walked into the audition room and went, today i am going to sing "ken lee" by Mariah Carey.

and the judge was like, "uh, dont you mean Without You?"
and she looked very grave and said, "No."

then she went on to sing Mariah Carey's Without You off pitch and it was absolutely awful and she sang some wierd lyrics, at first i thought it was bulgarian but when she finally stopped singing the judges asked her, "May i ask what language were you singing in?"
she said, " English."
and she looked so pleased that she was able to sing in english and it was hilarious cause she went, "ken leeeeeeeeee, ohhhh, toliboolibu dou choo, ken leeeeeeeeee, ken lee meju morrrr"

HAHAHAHA

hi everyone, okay so the first week of school has been looking pretty good :)
i know this week will be great,too,cause we're doing funfair preparations and we get to skip classes on thurs and fri.
isnt that wild?

van is so jealous of me cause we have e learning next week too.

i dont really know what to say here, except for the fact that i'm feeling a little down even though there's nothing to feel down about.
yesterday i cried to my mom for no reason at all and it was rather wierd.
but my nice mommy said its fine and i had to let it all out.
i just got back my ORCA book and i'm going to type my review out here.

This book is about a boy, Peter Houghton who has been teased and bullied all his life, and one day, he decides to take a stand and put a stop to all the bullying- once and for all. He takes four guns into the high school and starts shooting at anyone, particularly at the "popular" kids in school who made his life a living hell. Ten students wind up dead in the hallways and classrooms of the school, many more injured, and all the students with scars too deep to see. Peter is then arrested and sent to jail awaiting trial. I quote a part of the book,

"I wonder if anyone works any harder at anything than kids do at being popular. I mean, even the air traffic controllers and the President of the United States take vacations, but look at your average high school student, and you'll see someone who's putting in time twenty four hours a day, for the entire length of the school year. So how do you crack that inner sanctum? Well, here's the catch : its not up to you. What's important is how everyone thinks of how you dress, what you eat for lunch, what shows you TiVo, what music is on your ipod. I've always wondered,though : If everyone else's opinion is what matters,then do you ever really have one of your own?"

I feel that in today's context, popularity is an issue that needs to be addressed. It is more prominent in America as compared to Singapore, but i can relate to this book, because i have always felt a need to be accepted by my peers and to be viewed as "popular". Singapore kids are not as harsh, not many students get labelled as "losers" or "unpopular" and as a result of that, get beaten up in school.

You see this particular issue of popularity in almost every teenage movie produced in America,and most would think that it is just exaggerated in the movies, when in fact, they're not. There is a pressure on teenagers nowadays, something that not many adults understand : We care so much about how people view us, and how they may judge us, so we tend to hide behind a facade which we create to gain social acceptance. You see, popularity has to be seen as something you are, when in reality, its what you make of yourself.

Most teenagers are insecure, and they fear that if they reveal their true selves, people will not like them, so the facade is sort of a protection to ensure that they will be liked by their peers.

There is a connection between the book and my life - I am one of those girls who hide behind a facade, too. Just to be popular.