Morning,everyone.



Went out with Trevor yesterday to catch HSM 3.
Just needed to really chill after everything thats happened, so anyway. We went to Great World and its like The Best Place To Chill.
Everything was really laid back and all.
Went casual like white shorts and an emerald green Ralph Lauren polo tee and pastel green flip flops.Grabbed my mom's cobalt blue Loewe Kite in the most buttery leather.

Was slightly late so met Trevor outside Zara. He got me the usual,and my latte kept me warm,hurray!
Walked around Great World for awhile,saw the Patricia Field for M&S line!
Nice.
Trevor didnt want to watch a dumb show like HSM but ah, I talked him into it, yay me!
We got nachos,a large coke,salted popcorn and poured the chocolate over the popcorn, yum. :)
HSM was not bad but y'know what I still think the first installation was the very best.
Good choreography, though.


Went to walk around Copthorne Hotel eh is that the name? Ah,something like that.
Anyway we got into this cab and the moment my backside hit the seat the repulsive smell hit me. It was bloody strong I'm telling you. So I got out and Trevor was like,Hey whats wrong.
So he put his head in and realised why I got out of the cab and went, God,your cab stinks,man.
Its disgusting.
So we got into another cab and Trevor dropped me off at the condo.
Had a fun time with Charlotte playing games and talking about her holiday :)



when we were walking around he said it. soft into my ear.
i love you.
i smiled back and told him, i love you,too.


Morning, love.



Now that exams are over, I barely even know what to do with all the time that I have. I cannot stand sitting around and getting nothing done.
I'll start studying for O Levels in November but as October comes to an end I have signed up for workshops such as baking and scrapbooking :D


Went out with Abi yesterday, it was seriously funny okay, we couldnt decide where to go so Abi was like,"Okay, the first bus that comes, we hop on it. Deal?"
So we ended up in Vivo.
How dull.
But anyway. We went to Carls Junior for lunch and shared a Portobello Mushroom Burger, Medium fries and Medium Zapple.
I heart Abi Chew!
Walked around, and I'm so happy, I got my white and gold bangles that I've been eyeing on for about three weeks now in a sale, at $6, so yes, on my way back home my hands couldnt help but creep into the bag and finger my much loved bangles.

Will be choosing Kunming,China for my Overseas Service Learning Programme next Jan/Feb.
Read Kim Choooo's blog on her experience there, was bloody hilarious.
HAHAH.

Have been praying for Sarah,hope she's doing fine.
She told me I LOVE YOU okay! HAHAHA Sarahhh I love you too! :D

Am on the phone with Trevor now,
Bye sweethearts.





Oh, I had a very satisfying dream last night.

You. Me.
Together,
Forever.


Go figure.

Hi everyone,

Today was filled with relief, joy and laughter.

Relief because uhm I'm not going to say it here but to those who know what I did, all you have to know is that the problem is resolved and I was a total moron for having all those sleepless nights because Brandon was spot on.

During PE spent time talking with Dylan and Shimin and it was rather fun actually.
We shared about our dads and how most of the time we're closer to our moms. But Shimin's closer to her dad which is wayy cool cause well. I wish I were closer to my dad,too. Laughed about how you totally get sick of your chosen CCA after the initial enthusiasm wears out.
Joked about Zachary getting lost, the poor boy.
But Zachary is nice.


Then signed out with Nicholas and spent time chatting and joking about cosmetic surgery procedures and how Michael Jackson's nose completely fell off.
HAHA.
Sorry Nicholas, I spread my flu to you. So the two of us were in the GO sniffing away and breaking out into a fit of sneezes.
It was quite comical haha!


Today as I was on the way to the toilet I walked past this classroom and peeped inside cause they were blasting Christian songs and boy,was I inspired.
I saw a few Sec 4s sitting at their desks doing Chem past year papers and I just felt so awed because even when the Sec 4s were running their final lap of the race, hours before their Chem paper, they still held on to God and believed that with Him, all things are possible.

I just went weak inside as I saw them sitting on the shoulders of God, charging forward to win the race. Because as they sit for this incredibly important paper, God is guilding them, every step of the way.

Sec 4s, Persevere on, don't lose faith, because your Father is with you even as you step into the examination room.

Its not about how important and life changing this examination is, its how powerful our God is.
Because all of you can do better than ever before, with God.


Sec 3s, let us strive to be the very best cohort Fairfield has ever seen!














































Hello all,


I had such an amazing day at the Army and it was seriously fun okay.
We got to see the 3rd generation infantry weapons,try combat rations,joke around with the NS men,take photos of our salutes with the NS men,see Ah Gao's face turned black after trying to wash off the camou paint with water,get a square Hitler moustache painted on our faces,see the tall and goodlooking sniper unit guys,fire a GPMG with real bullets that could kill someone who stood in front of us, and watch the NS men run from their bunks to the parade square and get into formation.



It was seriously funny and we spotted one good looking NS man which was sort of our motive for going, anyway. But like what the hell la we didnt even get to ask for his name!

I'm sure all the guys in 2SIR battalion all hated us cause well, they were forced by their superiors to host us and they had to set up stations and all that which was more work for them,
but eh, once they recieve the presents all of us got for them and watch the hilarious video of us doing stupid things all day in the Indonesian forest where they will no doubt be feeling lousy and demoralized, no more hatred! :D




Thank you all 2SIR battalion guys at the Amoy Quee camp!
It was a bloody fun day.







TODAY

Went out for a morning run today to clear my head of all the thoughts that were swimming around in it,was so refreshing, I should really do this every Sunday.
Am waiting for Oprah to come on, but have figured a way to counter all the negative thoughts in my head- by thinking of yesterday :)

Can't wait for Nicholas to post the pictures but I really do hope that he won't post unglam photos of me without an advance notice of 48 hours to help me be mentally prepared of my crap photos being made public.

Today is the very last day I can enjoy, cause I'm getting back my papers tmr and I sure won't be a happy girl after recieving them. Don't think I'll be doing well this time round but ah, whats done is done. So yeah, I really want to enjoy today. Too bad everyone's having school today and I can't go out with anyone. I'll be staying home today or going to the Botanic Gardens to just sit and paint. Haven't decided yet.



Love you everyone.

I'm a liar.
And a damn good one at that.
Don't think you know me, because I've lied to you,too.
I've lied to everyone. Even those people that I talk to on a daily basis.

You lie to people, and hide your face behind a veil of laughter, smiles and deceit,
because, if you don't, people will see that you are this close, to crumbling.




Today's the first time I sat out on service.
I just had to have some time alone to think.
So I spent the entire service time sitting on the steps of the Plaza.
I just felt so awful I had to get out.
So I grabbed my bag and got into a cab.
I made the driver stop at a NTUC so I could go in and get a cup of yogurt cause I was starving.
Ate the yogurt in the cab and ran to the bathroom the moment I reached home and threw up everything I ate into the toilet bowl and sat there for hours sobbing.








I'm breaking into pieces.

Hi everyone,


Today was, by far, the most awful day of examinations. I think I'm going to scrape through E Math and it'll be a complete miracle if I actually get a B.
But oh, Physics, it was terrible!
I actually cried during the paper I gave up on the last question and I don't know, maybe emotions have been running high and I've been keeping alot inside, but I can't believe I cried. Thank God no one saw.
The paper was so tough, and thats saying quite a bit because I really did study for it.

Lord please let me scrape through.just a 50 would be lovely.

Anyway. Met Trevor today after talking to Rosanne for awhile.
I love you.





Oh and Pris I love you too. Thank you for talking to me. Just being.





Should I get the Prada lace tote, or the Mulberry Bayswater, or. the Marc Jacobs Multipocket Bag?

But I love them all!

So Far:
Two votes for the Prada lace tote- Trevor and Amanda.
Three for the Bayswater.

And nada for Marc Jacobs! D:

Mernel Koh (1993-2008)




I'm not going to paint a picture where Mernel was a perfect girl
I'm going to describe her just as she was.
Imperfect, but a genuinely nice girl at the very core.

She would always agree to help me when I needed help in primary school
when I needed dancers
when I needed a bloody genius idea to wrap up a performance and set the bar for other teams to compete against.
when I threw up after dancing too much she and the girls cleaned me up and made me feel so much better.

On my first day in Fairfield Methodist Secondary School
I had no friends.
No one to sit with during recess,
or lunch, for that matter.

So I went to look for the few people that I actually knew.
To seek comfort, to seek solace, to seek the familiar.
I went to seek Mernel. Danielle.

And we spent the recess talking.


Will someone please tell me the details of the funeral if they find out. Thank you.







"Was she a Christian?", I ask.