Hi guys sorry have not been updating for a really long time but uhm really nothing much has happened basically it's still me in Starbucks studying-same old,same old. Today I kind of feel like shit and am blogging in Starbucks so I will not be doing any paragraphing since i'm too damn lazy. B I know that when you tried to figure out whether I was okay and what was going on I pushed you away. I know you're prolly mad at me right now and fed up with everything and you don't care anymore. I think this is the last straw I think we're finally not friends anymore. It breaks me and I swear I feel like shit just thinking of losing you because part of me still loves you yet part of me can't stand you for making me your backup plan and not your choice. I tried to be okay with being second all the time but this is it I'm done with being second because just for once,can't I be your priority? I can't ever be your priority because she is yours. You can't have the best of both worlds- this is where you choose. And I know that you will choose her over me, but just so you know. If things don't work out with her,don't come running back to me.